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When I was a teen-ager,
my mother always assured me that I wasn't fat; rather, I was big-boned.
And I had a very slow metabolism. Both observations were probably true,
but not the main reason I weighed 220 pounds (my suit size was 44 husky
when I graduated high school)--too fat for the Marines or the Air Force.
I assumed that by enlisting in the U.S. Coast Guard, the only service
that would accept me at my weight, I would have an easy time of it, physically.
After all, they were the shallow-water sailors. Little did I know that
because we were operating mostly on the coast (guarding our shores from
enemy aggression), we were always running like hell.
A favorite drill
in basic training (boot camp) was triggered by a certain signal on the
bell tower--three staccato chimes. At that moment, we recruits, wherever
we were standing, whatever we were doing, were obliged to grab our pieces
(M-1 rifles) and bayonets and dash to the water to meet an invading enemy
and do combat. Traditional Coast Guard boot camp was 12 weeks, versus
the Army's nine-week stint. But even after 12 weeks of basic, I was the
only member of my company not allowed to graduate and join a unit. I had
lost a good deal of weight at this point--and was certainly as fit as
I had ever been--having been forced to march endlessly and run and dive
maniacally through the Marine-style obstacle course. But I could not seem
to pass the rope test. This was a rope, 50 feet high, with knots spaced
evenly for handholds; you needed to climb to the top, and then control
your descent. There were other ways of boarding an invading ship, but
if a rope is the only answer, a Coast Guardsman must be physically able
to do it. Every night after supper I was tested, and every night I failed.
During the day, I
worked with a maintenance crew inside an abandoned boiler, chiseling away
at the burnt-in soot and debris for hours on end without seeing natural
light between breakfast and lunch or lunch and supper. At that time, masks
were unheard of. You breathed in the coal dust in the morning and coughed
it out at night. By day's end, I lacked the energy and determination to
climb the rope or even to work out with free-weights to strengthen my
upper body. Not wanting to remain in boot-camp limbo for the rest of my
hitch, I started to get up early in the morning and do hundreds of push-ups
and sit-ups before reveille. At lunch, instead of eating or smoking, I
would take long walks around the compound. Or I went into the men's room
and practiced pull-ups on the toilet stall doors. The guys with whom I
shared boiler-cleaning duty were in detention because of some criminal
act they had committed, not because they were too fat or couldn't pass
the rope test. They would not have taken kindly to by "public" display
of extra physical training. Their attitude was that we had plenty enough
P.T. in our own routine.
Under my secret regimen,
however, no more than 10 days went by before I surprised myself and my
instructors by literally bounding up the rope from floor to ceiling, which
I touched with one sure hand, then skittering down again without using
my feet. When I got to the bottom the first time, I showboated by going
up again and back. It was a triumphant moment, not just because I succeeded,
but more so because of the ease with which I pulled it off.
A few years later,
I realized that my struggle to climb the rope as a Coast Guard recruit--and
my eventual success--was also my first significant step toward the writing
life. I had always been a voracious reader, and the library, wherever
I was stationed on active duty, became a haven of privacy and comfort.
The library is where I first began writing long letters and journal entries
that eventually turned into essays and short stories. But my triumph climbing
the rope led to my understanding and appreciation of a writer's real secret
of success: discipline--an attempt to be creative and productive on a
regular basis. Virtually every writer I have ever known or read about,
regardless of genre, lifestyle or location, writes or "works out" on a
regular schedule. From William Styron to Joyce Carol Oates to John McPhee,
writing regimentation is a key to success.
Each day, seven days
a week (for the past 20 years), I climb out of bed at 4:30 a.m. and am
at work at my desk within 30 minutes. I can get a lot done when the phone
doesn't ring and the horns don't honk. When I get jammed up with work,
I have learned to push the time back--I get up earlier. When you are on
my kind of schedule, it doesn't matter if you awaken at 4:30 a.m. or 3:45
a.m. Obviously, you might have to go to sleep earlier, but five hours
a night is more than enough for my needs. As I said, all successful writers
will write on a regular schedule and in a disciplined way. But creative
nonfiction requires an even more focused discipline because we are not
only writers but also reporters and researchers who utilize literary techniques
to capture and portray real life and to investigate significant moral
and cultural issues.
This issue of Creative
Nonfiction contains excellent examples of the potential of the genre and
of how much can be accomplished with focused commitment and unwavering
dedication. It is also a perfect model of the varied points of view achievable
in writing creative nonfiction--from the distance of immersion/reportage
to the personal closeness and intimacy of poetry. In Issue 7, Sherry Simpson,
a journalist, not only concentrates on the heart of the debate in Alaska
concerning harvesting (killing) wolves but also takes us deep into the
backcountry so that we can understand the depths of belief on all sides
of the issue. Mark Bowden ("Finders Keepers"), also a journalist, captures
in intimate detail the seamy side of life in Philadelphia and the frustration
and despair of people who live on the fringes of society, while Brenda
Marie Osbey portrays the tragic story of the talented but unappreciated
musician from New Orleans, Buddy Bolden. David Hamilton, editor of The
Iowa Review, ponders Robert Frost and the impact of poetry, while Maxine
Kumin discusses the discipline required by gardening and the joy of growing
things. David Gessnerís "June Journal" of the final days of his father's
life provides an interesting and evocative contrast to the warmth and
joy displayed in Charles Simic's "Dinner at Uncle Boris's." Both Maxine
Kumin and Charles Simic, incidentally, are recipients of the Pulitzer
Prize in poetry.
You will see that
these writers are very different in voice and approach--points of view.
But if you ask them, they will all tell you about the regimentation under
which they usually work: a disciplined, regular schedule, morning, noon
or night, day after day, through most of the year. This is how writers
become writers. They may write an impeccable essay, seemingly with ease,
just as I passed the U.S. Coast Guard rope test as if I were an accomplished
athlete. But I trained hard to be able to scramble up 50 feet, just as
writers labor in the privacy of their solitary spaces with disciplined
regularity in order to produce a memorable literary effort. We often don't
think about writing as a deliberate act of discipline, but that is exactly
how the artful essay begins.

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