By Robin Hemley
On Halloween I was told that I would wear a mask, and so I wore it all day. The mask was plastic. Prince Valiant. As I wore it, the mask became wet and hot with my breath. At dinner, I ate with it on, trying to topple my milk through the little mouth hole, trying to spoon peas through the little mouth hole. Invincible and unmoving I watched my brother and sister fight through the little eye holes, breathing fierce hot breath through the nose hole. Halloween. This seemed good. I wanted more. Someone knocked on the door and my sister went to answer. When she came back, she had our neighbor with her, a woman even older than my father. The woman’s eyes were wide and she was shouting and so we all left the kitchen and our meals and ran downstairs, my mother carrying me, Prince Valiant. I raised my arm as we ran down the stairs, my invisible sword clenched, ready to meet the enemy on the field of battle. From the street, we watched flames leap from our neighbor’s window. I looked up at the flames and watched as little birds of smoke flew from the broken glass to meet us, and I thought Halloween was good. Halloween was a neat day because you wore a mask and you watched your neighbor’s apartment on fire and then the fire trucks arrived and men in uniforms ran around with hoses. That night, I dreamed that I drank my milk, but at the bottom of the glass an eyeball was staring up at me, and I dreamed I was back in my baby carriage in the park and my mother left me there and said she’d be back in a minute, but then it grew dark and she wasn’t back. When I awoke, I ran to the kitchen where my mother and father were talking over the newspaper at the dinette table. I didn’t have my mask on anymore, but my face still felt hot and wet and I couldn’t tell them what I had seen. But my mother asked me if I wanted cornflakes and my Dad was already up so he reached in the cupboard and opened the box and a bunch of cockroaches poured out and scattered on the floor where my father dropped the box. He screamed, “Elaine, kill them, kill them!” and that’s what she did, stepping on the roaches, as I watched and waited to take a gander at the next thing in line.
the author of seven books of fiction and nonfiction, including Invented
Eden. He has recent or forthcoming work in Ninth Letter,
Haydens Ferry Review, Another Chicago Magazine and
Tampa Review. Hemley is Director of the Nonfiction Writing
Program at the University of Iowa.